Dream on

Had a very strange experience Saturday night. I stirred about two o'clock and remained in a semi-conscious state for well over an hour, being aware of the clock every now and then.

In that time I tossed and turned in bed as my life ran through my mind like an edited movie / documentary. I realised that I was scanning - the search criteria was to find people with whom I could recall an intimate, loving, secure relationship. The answer: none found.

I was tempted to call it a nightmare however those always have a sense of unreality about them. This seemed factual - real and disturbing.